Everything happens for a reason,
as it is meant to happen,
when it is meant to happen.
I was reminded of this over the last 48 hours in a very profound way.
I have been on a journey with two particularly healing clients who have taught me a great many things in a short period of time.
It is interesting that these messages, though known to me intellectually have taken so long to integrate!
Perhaps I was waiting for the right teachers to enter into my life.
as it is meant to happen,
when it is meant to happen.
I was reminded of this over the last 48 hours in a very profound way.
I have been on a journey with two particularly healing clients who have taught me a great many things in a short period of time.
It is interesting that these messages, though known to me intellectually have taken so long to integrate!
Perhaps I was waiting for the right teachers to enter into my life.
As these teachers have entered my life, a cycle of healing and change has begun. First slowly and now quite rapidly! Here is a little insight into this part of my journey - hopefully it will encourage you to look more closely at the opportunities within your own experience and to take full advantage of what is presented to you.
I have a particularly ambitious student, and a particularly courageous client. Both have taught me the importance of TRUST in the journey and TRUST in my own intuition as well as my Guides.
I am reminded of the Akashic contracts that each of us sign before we enter a new life. If I am contractually obligated to fulfill a task, and I avoid, side step, or 'half-ass' the assignment, my guides are here to ensure that I do not sherk my work. They will put that lesson, that obligation back in front of me until I whole heartedly complete my contractual obligations.
So I now know why I continue to deal with the same lesson over and over again, and why I have not yet healed myself. This was a question my student asked me yesterday during our meeting.
I am, honestly, half-assing my work here on earth! I have, due to all kinds of excuses, and self doubt, and worries about what other people will think, or feel, or assume, not stepped proudly and loudly into my role. I have not lead by example but by words only and these students have clearly shown me what can be done if I only practiced what I preach.
This became particularly evident during a healing that I received yesterday under the three sisters in the pouring rain in an amazing healing space that my student has manifested by trusting her guides to bring what is necessary into her world.
I am reminded of the Akashic contracts that each of us sign before we enter a new life. If I am contractually obligated to fulfill a task, and I avoid, side step, or 'half-ass' the assignment, my guides are here to ensure that I do not sherk my work. They will put that lesson, that obligation back in front of me until I whole heartedly complete my contractual obligations.
So I now know why I continue to deal with the same lesson over and over again, and why I have not yet healed myself. This was a question my student asked me yesterday during our meeting.
I am, honestly, half-assing my work here on earth! I have, due to all kinds of excuses, and self doubt, and worries about what other people will think, or feel, or assume, not stepped proudly and loudly into my role. I have not lead by example but by words only and these students have clearly shown me what can be done if I only practiced what I preach.
This became particularly evident during a healing that I received yesterday under the three sisters in the pouring rain in an amazing healing space that my student has manifested by trusting her guides to bring what is necessary into her world.
(I know - there is an energy exchange to be sure - but it's definitely something I struggle with! It's part of my learning process and my students have never judged me for it and I am thankful for that!)
My guides clearly wanted me to receive this healing outside, under the three sisters, with this particular healer at this particular moment. I couldn't wait for the rain to pass, and I needed to find a way to make it happen.
My guides clearly wanted me to receive this healing outside, under the three sisters, with this particular healer at this particular moment. I couldn't wait for the rain to pass, and I needed to find a way to make it happen.
I have been listening more closely to the call of nature lately - trying to get outside, and reconnect as much as possible, going for regular walks in the local woods, having dinner (and sometimes breakfast too) on the porch, and taking my computer outside to the deck whenever I can to do my work listening to the wind blowing through the leaves in my backyard, gazing up at the crisp blue sky through the gap in the trees behind my home.
This effort has been healing in it's own right, and having that connection to Mother Nature, and the recent experience of her presence in my life gave me the desire and courage to ask my student for the opportunity to heal in the rain.
This effort has been healing in it's own right, and having that connection to Mother Nature, and the recent experience of her presence in my life gave me the desire and courage to ask my student for the opportunity to heal in the rain.
Accepting healing in the rain also reminded me that there is more to healing then connecting to our personal grounding element. One must use all five elements to heal body, mind and soul. I am most definitely an earth grounder. I always have been and I can't imaging a deeper connection with any of the other elements - and yet they are a part of this world's experience and so I should not ignore them, and should strive to connect with them all. I am reminded that connecting to the elements can happen anytime, and anywhere - we encompass all five elements in our very being:
Body, muscle, bone is earth
Blood, saliva is water
Breath is air
Passion, sexuality is fire
Connection is soul
By connecting to, embracing, and experiencing all of this in our everyday life we allow for the experience of this life in it's entirety and thus for healing and growing on a continual basis.
Body, muscle, bone is earth
Blood, saliva is water
Breath is air
Passion, sexuality is fire
Connection is soul
By connecting to, embracing, and experiencing all of this in our everyday life we allow for the experience of this life in it's entirety and thus for healing and growing on a continual basis.
Allow me the space to chronical the revelations that came to me during this brief 90 minute session with my student:
I have lost my wings - the painful spot in my back - which I have been aware of for over a decade - is where my wings were literally taken from me. Arch Angel Raphael came and assisted in the healing under the three sisters and I could feel him working on the area. After that part of the healing, I felt as though the seed of wings had been planted again.
I want control because I do not trust. If I can surrender to trust I will not need to be in control.
This realization has been a long time coming as I travel from healing space to healing space, seeing that perfection is not necessary. A beautiful and healing and safe environment does not necessarily mean a completely perfect in every way environment - the host/ess has a lot to do with the experience of the client, and their confidence and joy within their own space makes a big difference. This can be applied to any aspect of life.
My need for control hinders my relationships on every level and with every person.
My ability to listen to the people around me, and then give them what they are asking for will allow me opportunities to grow as well:
My student and I have an unconventional contract. I offer a mentor-ship and an apprenticeship contract to my Master-Teacher Students. Listening to my student, and being willing to change my course to accommodate her needs has opened up a completely different way of teaching to me that will benefit me, my future students, and my future clients.
I have lost my wings - the painful spot in my back - which I have been aware of for over a decade - is where my wings were literally taken from me. Arch Angel Raphael came and assisted in the healing under the three sisters and I could feel him working on the area. After that part of the healing, I felt as though the seed of wings had been planted again.
I want control because I do not trust. If I can surrender to trust I will not need to be in control.
This realization has been a long time coming as I travel from healing space to healing space, seeing that perfection is not necessary. A beautiful and healing and safe environment does not necessarily mean a completely perfect in every way environment - the host/ess has a lot to do with the experience of the client, and their confidence and joy within their own space makes a big difference. This can be applied to any aspect of life.
My need for control hinders my relationships on every level and with every person.
My ability to listen to the people around me, and then give them what they are asking for will allow me opportunities to grow as well:
My student and I have an unconventional contract. I offer a mentor-ship and an apprenticeship contract to my Master-Teacher Students. Listening to my student, and being willing to change my course to accommodate her needs has opened up a completely different way of teaching to me that will benefit me, my future students, and my future clients.
Because of this unconventional agreement, I agreed to go home after our last session and learn Karuna Reiki, in order to then pass on the teachings to her. As it turns out - I already have all the components I need - I have already been taught them over the years, but I have not been using them in the particular manner taught by Karuna Reiki.
I was intrigued by the concept of "Compassionate Action" taught in Karuna Reiki, and felt that this is how my shift will happen. It gave me permission to take control of healing (ha! completely opposite to the lessons thus far both in reiki and in my own life) in a compassionate way. To ACTIVELY heal rather than passively heal.
After some further research and reading, I ended the night with a prayer to the higher power, and asking for assistance from my guides to connect me with the energy as I slept. I fell asleep in a meditative stance used by Karuna Reiki students.
When I woke I felt immediately that there was going to be big healing happening and a shift to a higher healing energy.
During my morning stretches, I used the Karuna Energy to relax and soften my muscles (which were pretty tight!). It worked quickly and easily.
Then I hopped into the shower to prepare for the day with the intention of shedding and washing away (using the water element) all the stagnant energy that was no longer serving me. My attention went immediately to the painful spot in my back where Arch Angel Raphael had been working.
I was brought back to the memory of loosing my wings. It was intense. I cried, I resigned, I lost my wings all over again in that shower. But I understood why I had lost them and that the person taking them was not actually the person responsible.
I remembered that I had made a choice knowing full well that this might be the outcome. Knowing full well that if I railed against the authority I might loose my wings. But I had made that choice, and now I was suffering the consequences, and I would courageously step into the next part of my journey without my wings, justified, and true.
I was intrigued by the concept of "Compassionate Action" taught in Karuna Reiki, and felt that this is how my shift will happen. It gave me permission to take control of healing (ha! completely opposite to the lessons thus far both in reiki and in my own life) in a compassionate way. To ACTIVELY heal rather than passively heal.
After some further research and reading, I ended the night with a prayer to the higher power, and asking for assistance from my guides to connect me with the energy as I slept. I fell asleep in a meditative stance used by Karuna Reiki students.
When I woke I felt immediately that there was going to be big healing happening and a shift to a higher healing energy.
During my morning stretches, I used the Karuna Energy to relax and soften my muscles (which were pretty tight!). It worked quickly and easily.
Then I hopped into the shower to prepare for the day with the intention of shedding and washing away (using the water element) all the stagnant energy that was no longer serving me. My attention went immediately to the painful spot in my back where Arch Angel Raphael had been working.
I was brought back to the memory of loosing my wings. It was intense. I cried, I resigned, I lost my wings all over again in that shower. But I understood why I had lost them and that the person taking them was not actually the person responsible.
I remembered that I had made a choice knowing full well that this might be the outcome. Knowing full well that if I railed against the authority I might loose my wings. But I had made that choice, and now I was suffering the consequences, and I would courageously step into the next part of my journey without my wings, justified, and true.
This was fascinating to me, because as many of you reading this know - whenever I picture myself as my higher self, my soul being, outside of the constraints of this world, I have beautiful rainbow wings, and I am often carrying two babies. So I have always known that I am meant to have wings, but did not know why or how I had lost them. |
The question now becomes, and I haven't found any answers yet - what was / is the purpose of the lost wings? What was so important, so right, so just that I gave up my wings to be here, NOW, and fight for it?
What do I need to do to get my wings back?
What do I need to do to get my wings back?
Is it time for me to step back into the role of social warrior that I played so valiantly as a teenager? Do I still need to fight to fulfill this contractual obligation? Is there a peaceful way to bring about this change?
Is the role of gatekeeper, which I have held for decades, still relevant at this juncture in my life?
Only time, meditation, open ears and eyes and TRUST will tell ...
Another aspect of my journey lately has been to accept the healing offered to me, with grace and humility. At my next healing with my courageous client (who is also an amazing massage therapist) I will ask her to step out of her comfort zone, and to guide me through the Ancient Secrets of Manifestation Process to discover what is blocking me from regaining my wings. I shall ask my higher self what is blocking me from having my beautiful rainbow wings and then I shall work diligently to remove those blocks from my life!
Is the role of gatekeeper, which I have held for decades, still relevant at this juncture in my life?
Only time, meditation, open ears and eyes and TRUST will tell ...
Another aspect of my journey lately has been to accept the healing offered to me, with grace and humility. At my next healing with my courageous client (who is also an amazing massage therapist) I will ask her to step out of her comfort zone, and to guide me through the Ancient Secrets of Manifestation Process to discover what is blocking me from regaining my wings. I shall ask my higher self what is blocking me from having my beautiful rainbow wings and then I shall work diligently to remove those blocks from my life!